This & That

Here's what I was taking during the cycle we conceived:   T3 – 22.5 mcg @ 2xday Glucophage (name brand) – 1000 mg @ 1xday at night – finally got the insurance company to cover name brand as my body was not accepting and absorbing the generic and only recently in the last 3 months or so on 1000 mg.) Fertile CM – 1 capsule 3xday on cd10-P+2 (I am really bad at taking these, the smell of opening the bottle almost makes me gag, but only the last two cycles) Vitamin B6 (timed release) 1xday Clomid – 50 mg - cd 3-7 @ 1xday Prenatals (Citranatal DHA?) at night every night Antibiotics – cd 14-18 @ 2xday to enhance cm Antibiotics – 21 day regimen for both my husband and I since I complained of seeing some b bleeding before the last cycle started. HCG injections – 2500 units on p+3, 5, & 7   My pill boxes are feeling lonely these days, since I am only on the following: T3 – 22.5 mcg @ 2xday Glucopage (name brand) 1000 mg (they said this can be helpful in avoiding gestational diabetes) Prenatals Also, PIO IM injections 2 x week (so far 2000 units, if that is the right measurement)   Praise God!  There was also a vacation in there and Disney World!   My husband gave me the shot last night and before I got into my stand, I caught a glimpse of that needle!  Good gracious, it is HUGE!!!!  I kept thinking what do those skinny girls do, their butts are not big enough to even handle a needle that size!! Hahahahaha  I told my husband that last night and he just told me to go to sleep.  Unfortunately, my butt has plenty of room for big needles J  I do have to say that they are not hurting like before.  J is really getting good at this!  It will truly be seeing our labor of love for both of us when we set eyes on our baby.  I think that J's getting the PIO ready and administering it for me is almost his way of "carrying" this child.  I couldn't do it without him.  Sure, he contributed at great deal at the beginning, but it is such a great way for him to be active in promoting this young life. I am loving all of this and feel so odd that I am so hopeful.  I am trying so hard. I don't know how to be just a regular pregnant girl, all I know is IF and loss.  Tragic loss, so I am praying that God is ready to teach me something new.  We have shared the news with our parents and J's siblings,  my aunt that I really close too that has not been able to have any children of her own flesh, but she is like a mother to me and so many more, J's boss for prayers, and my four closest friends.  Oh, I also told my Spiritual Director.  I was really afraid to share so early on, but I wanted them to be prepared if for some reason something unexpected would happen and we would need their support.  We also did it because we wanted Prayer Warriors (along with my Prayer Warrior Blogger buddies) storming Heaven with us for the life of our baby to not be interrupted. We got mixed reactions, everyone was joyful and in tears when we shared the news, but there was tremendous concern.  Tremendous.  I have been getting the impression that a few people almost think that it was tremendously risky for us to try to have a baby.  They are worried.  I understand that, but I almost feel like God called me to walk past my fear and to place complete trust in Him.  I do believe that with my whole heart that He called us to be open to life and that is what we are doing.  Yes, being open to the will of God is not the norm these days and it is not easy.  It is risky, but God asks us to trust Him.  God asks us to let him lead us where we do not know the way and never be the same.  (Thanks AYWH – the summons is one of my favorite songs) He will carry us on eagle's wings.  Our vision is broader when we can catch a glimpse of what He is seeing and doing. "I set before you life & death, blessings and curses; CHOOSE LIFE, so that you and your children will live!"  Deuteronomy 30:19