I am

I am believing that God wants this baby to be a part of our families.

I am believing that God is bigger than all of my worries, fears, and history.

I am believing that I will be able to carry this child well and to a fruitful birth!

I am so excited for this moment in time.

I am so glad that my faith will have to be tested . . . I pray that I will make it.

I am rejoicing that I had a somewhat queasy stomach today when my belly was empty :)

I am proclaiming to my husband that I am so happy that "the girls" are feeling more tender. How crazy is that? hahaha

I am having trouble being cool enough to sleep well at night and toss and turn and get up excessively to go to the bathroom.

I am doing my best to bond with Little Bit, but there are times I am not feeling any different than any other day and I have to remind myself that what I thought was impossible, God has made possible.

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I did get a call from the nurse at PPVI and she said that Dr. H believes that the u/s being repeated in 2 weeks is sufficient. After the concerned call from the nurse yesterday, I had a bad case of nerves and freaked out. I was on cloud nine for most of the day and at 5:30 pm I get a concerned call from PPVI. I really trust Dr. H's wisdom, so I immediately became worried. I did have some uncomfortable flutters on the right side and I am battling a bad case of passing whatever I eat really quickly and I know that constipation is usually the problem not the other way around. Anyway, as it stands now, I will do the second u/s on Monday, May 3rd. I will do my next progesterone blood draw on Tueday, April 27 along with another sample for CRP. On a sidenote (for future references, the area is where they said your appendix is and I don't feel any gut wrenching pain, so it can't be that.
I plan to monitor all of my pain and if I get to the point that I am completely scared or ill, I will call my doctor for an u/s earlier than May 3. I am slightly concerned about being alone on the weekends in the event that another episode that I had before would happen again. I think that all of these fears are normal, but I just keep offering them all up to Jesus. I have googled way too much and I must stop. God intends for this new child's life to be a blessing and I intend to receive it as such ;)
Pregnancy is hard after infertility, yet it is incredibly amazing. I don't want to sound ungrateful . . . but I wish it was all wine and roses :) Just kidding, something has to ground me for the tough times to come as well as the most beautiful ones I can imagine.