P is for PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!

Yes, apparently it is true! Despite my complete shock, humbled spirit, complete loss of words to express myself or my gratitude, I found out today that I am pregnant!

I still can barely type those words and my heart has had to just trust all day that God is in control of this baby's life and that no circumstance will change this child's relationship with their creator God!

Here is a little bit of the story of my day!

Last night my husband told me "Don't be afraid to test, you are going to be suprised!" Well, fast foward to 6 am this morning and despite going to the bathroom alot during the night, I decided to just test and get over the drama of the suprise of cd 1 showing up. Well, I am half asleep trying to free the pg test from it's package. Once I ripped open the box, I tested and recapped the test and carried it to my bedside table, I was too tired to wait for the three minutes in the bathroom. So I am holding it in my hand and turn on the lamp and see the words "PREGNANT" on the test. I freak out. Really, I was so shook up! J was still home so I called him into the room and he ran to the room to see what was going on and when I could finally talk, I showed him the test results! He was just as amazed as I was. I just kept looking at it. This was craziness!

I then manage to kick myself into high gear and I texted a quick pic of the test result to my prayer buddy!! Thanks, Sew!!! Your encouragement all day long kept me smiling and helped me to remember just how glorious this moment in time really is for J and I!!

I called PPVI at 9am to request a beta hcg test, then they called and had an order sent to my lab. I took an early lunch, tested, and then made the trip back to work! On a sidenote, I loved the lady at the lab! She was so happy that I was pregnant ;) I love that everyone just realized what a dream come true this is for us!

I really thought that the morning test could have been wrong and that the nurse is going to call me and tell me "Sorry, hon. You are not pregnant, it was a mistake." I was sitting on pins and needles waiting for a return call and as I am calling my lab to see if they sent the results, the nurse from PPVI calls me with my results. At first she did not have them and when I told her they had been sent she put me on hold and went to find them. It seemed I was on hold foever :) I was so suprised when seh came back and said "It's good news! At p+15, you hcg level is 222!!!"

Total, utter shock. I prayed all day long and did two rosaries begging God to keep this little one safe and secure!

I was also able to spend some time in adoration this evening and so my heart is filled with peace.

I told my husband first thing this morning that if we have this baby for 10 days or 60 years, I want to make the most of each day! I am trying to not be filled with worry and fear and just trust in God's will for our family.

I have contacted my local ob and she set me up for an early u/s for Monday, April 19.

Forever I will sing the praised of God!!

I will appreciate all prayers that anyone will be willing to offer up for us and for our child. I am so humbled.

By the way, to put some perspective on the miraculous presence of this baby here are a few stats of our history:
1. We have been married for almost ten years this July :)
2. We have been blessed with two other pregnancies! One in the first months of our marriage that was an early m/c and then last year with an ectopic pregnancy that ruptured.
3. I have been diagnosed with PCOS, severe endo, and had to have a huge battery of tests, surgeries, etc.
4. I ONLY HAVE ONE TUBE LEFT!!!! PRAISE GOD! We give him our little bit and he took care of the rest!

Update:
My blood draw today included shipping a sample to PPVI for progesterone testing. They did decide to already set me up for pio injections that I will start tomorrow night. Kubats is overnighting the meds to me and I will get it tomorrow. So far my temps are staying pretty steady! Ladies, thank you so much for your support and prayers!!! A big thanks goes out to all of my pb's, Sew, Mrs. Blondies, and Kathryn :) I don't know how to gracefully say that I don't feel worthy of this great gift, but I am so thankful for a new life! New hope, not only for J and I, but for the WHOLE WORLD! This is a complete miracle and nothing less. I am praying that we all have the opportunity to be stunned at God's goodness!