Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Stress

I have so much stress building up right now and I wish I had a more laid bsck personality.

It took me so long to fall asleep last night that I got a migraine and Joseph woke up to eat again.

I was worried about my family and begging God just to help us because my husband was hurting terribly, Joseph still seems to be bothered by his ears, and I was worn out and had a spirit of feeling defeated.

Well, it turned out that my husband has a broken bone in his foot and will be out of work for three weeks. Thankfully, financially we should be fine, but my husband does not know how to rest and be still. In addition to that, I am very dependent on his help when he gets home and for a week, I tried my best not to ask for help, but even with his boot on he is still helping and that stresses me put more.

Despite the fact that the circumstances stink for us to have all of this upcoming family time, I am happy that he will be able to see the joyful moments I experience with Joseph daily. Already, he is able to see more of Joseph's personality!

As if that is not enough, some family came by this evening and before they even came, I begged God to help me be kind. I barely managed that and had t grit my teeth. It really breaks my heart the way they behave and takes everything I have to keep my opinion to myself when it is not asked for by them.

High point of the day was when I was running around in the grocery store (after being at home feeding Joseph and getting a call from my husband saying he was barely able to drive from his appointment to work to give his boss the news and realizing I need to go get him and leave his truck at his job, loading up the baby, and driving to town to get him) I run into my friend and Joseph's godmother and got my reminder that all is okay and that ths is blessing for more family time. So I got therapy in K.roger while my two boys were snuggled up in the car outside.

God really does send rainbows after the rain!

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

I wish . . .

for my husband to feel much better. It is just not easy to watch him suffer and feel so miserable.

Thankfully we have amazing friends, bosses, and coworkers who help us with the things and resources we need. My husband's boss got him in to see a specialist tomorrow morning. I am hoping that they can figure out what is going on so that it can be fixed. He has been going to work everyday and limping his way through the day on concrete. It is driving him even more crazy.

In some really great news, Joseph has discovered his hands this week! It is the cutest thing ever!

Wait, the coolest thing ever is when he giggled with me tonight! My heart skipped a beat and my husband lit up!

Thank you, Jesus, for bringing us such joy in the face of challenging circumstances.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Two

Yes, it apparently takes two trips to Penney's to get some good shots of our little munchkin.

It was nearly the most stressful thing we have done thus far. I nearly declined the opportunity to reschedule.

We took him yesterday for the appointment and were eager to get some cute nake.d butt pictures and then some family pictures. As I was getting ready in the bathroom, I overheard my husband telling Joseph "Do you know how long your Mommy has waited for this day?" It took my breath away!

Well, they ran late which meant he was not ready (full and with a clean diaper) so then he never really settled down into a mood for pictures, so we went back today and got a few more pictures. In the end, the photographer did well for what she had to work out. We saved a ton of money. I can't wait to get them in.

Please pray for my husband, he apparently has a stone bruise on his right foot and he stays on his feet all day long for work and is miserable. It came on at the strangest time and we hope it goes away sometime soon.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Post Office

You know you are at a new stage in your life when you are thrilled to get to go to the post office and Cajun Grocery by yourself.

My husband stayed home again from work today and so Joseph was napping beside the bed while my husband slept and I got to sneak away to mail off some packages I have been having on the couch for about two weeks. We live in such a small community, they will not even deliver mail to our homes. We all get free post office boxes, so getting the mail daily is a chore and now more complicated with a new baby. I can't see getting him out to make a 3 minute trip to the post office. I usually let it pile up for a few days or my husband will pick it up after work. UPS will not even deliver to our home. This is a huge pain in the rear, especially when ordering from my favorite stores or Kuba.ts.

So, anyway, with my husband home our routine got completley out of sync so as I am typing this post, my husband is rocking Joseph because I needed a getaway. Joseph took a long, late nap and my husband is saving the day right now. I am about to pass out here in this chair.

In other news, I am getting so excited planning for Joseph's Baptism. I found two outfits I like and will choose one soon. I also want to get some more pictures done for Joseph before he gets too much bigger but I am trying to make a choice on going to penny's or just doing some on my own somehow. Penny.s has a deal right now, so we shall see.

As we said our night prayers tonight, we prayed for all of your special intentions.

We also have heard of another young lady and her boyfriend expecting a new baby. They have a history of early pregnancy loss and were planning a wedding for this year so please keep them in your prayers. They have alot on their plate right now and are scared and excited all at the same time.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

2 months

Joseph is already two months.

I cannot believe it.

He is getting to be so much fun!

He is smiling so much and cooing all the time.

At the last visit to the doctor last Thursday, he was 11 lbs 5 oz!

Too bad his Daddy is sick and we spent the morning bringing him to the doctor! I do not know if it is our crazy weather, but all three of us had issues with fluid in the ears. At the end of January, I had ear problems, last Thursday Joseph had fluid in his ears and is still on meds for it, and now my husband has an ear infection.

I am ready for spring and good health!

Check out Joseph's two month picture on the sidebar!

Monday, February 14, 2011

Best.Valentine's.Ever!

This morning just took my breath away.

I woke up to a crying baby that was easily consoled when I picked him up and talked to him before feeding him.

He was a sweet reminder that love is present and in the flesh right in my arms. Completely undeserved, graciously given.

After he finished eating, he drifted off to sleep in my arms.

I looked over my other shoulder and saw my sweet husband sleeping peacefully on the other side of the bed.

Yes, it was the best Valentine's Day ever.

Filled with love, wonder, and smiles.

On our 12th Valentine's Day together, we celebrated as a family of 3!

Praise God!

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

JOY

It has been so long since I posted. Life has been unbelievable busy, but really good.

Since my last post, I was able to celebrate my birthday in grand style - changing poopy diapers, getting peed on by one cute boy, and LOVED, LOVED, LOVED every single minute of it.

I am loving cuddling with my little guy and am having to discipline myself in putting him down more during the day so I can teach him to sleep on his own a bit. Today, he did great! I did a happy dance the second time he did so well and after I cleaned the kitchen . . . I ran to take a nap too!!!

Speaking of Joseph's sleeping habits, he has been sleeping so good at night! For three nights in a row, he slept for 6 hours. I would feed him and he would sleep another 2-3 hours before waking for the day. He takes short naps and wakes up happy. I love the first stretch when I pull off his swaddle blanket. He is so darn cute!

He is still a bit fussy, but I am working on that by trying to be quick to have things ready for him. He KNOWS that after that diaper change, it is time to eat and you don't have much time before the tears start rolling if that meal is not ready.

I am struggling trying to figure out what to do next about fertility monitoring. I need to chart. I need to find a teacher to walk me through this process. I know that we need to wait before trying again for so many reasons. One day at a time. I need to know how to care for my body well in the meantime.

The only downfall is that daily I feel like I could do things so much better, balancing life better and caring for Joseph better. My husband thinks that I am doing fine, but I am a little harsh on myself.

In other great news, we had a fabulous weekend. On Saturday, we went to a friend's marriage blessing and reception. We stayed for hours there and Joseph did well! He was loved on by so many adorers! I got to visit and loved watching Joseph bring joy to so many. On Sunday, we slept in too late and missed mass at our church so we went to mass at the church I grew up in and it was amazing. Joseph slept throughout mass. I love holding him as I receive communion. Such joy. My heart swells watching him receive his blessing. We then went to Targe.t and W.almart and we have learned that Jospeh is ALLERGIC to Targe.t and W.almart, but apparently he loves mass! I can't complain, I suppose.

I got joy, joy, joy down in my heart . . . down in my heart to stay! Praise God!