Thoughts

I had the best night's sleep last night - I woke up feeling like a new woman! A starving woman though! hahaa

So at 930 am, I am making homemade french fries and tuna fish sandwiches!!! Seriously, this is nuts :) I will take it though, praise God for weird food cravings!

I then cleaned the kitchen and realized I ate way too much and could barely move or sit upright - now that is ridiculous, so I took a huge nap!!! From 1130-2pm!!!! That is not me at all, but I think there must be a growth spurt or I am just making up for lost sleep!! Any excuses will work for me.

I am making homemade chili tonight :) The minute I thought about it last night, I got all excited! I hope it doesn't make me sick!

So after my nap, I did the housework and then ate a piece of lemon cake, milk, and then had a pickle. This craziness is beyond me ;)

I think my husband would just laugh at how I spent my day, but I am living it up right now! It will not last, I will be out in the working world probably sooner than I imagine! I will try to sub a few days a week or there is a part-time job I applied for yesterday that is in my field, so I hope it would work out.

Tomorrow we get to see our baby again :) Yippee!!!

For awhile, it would seem like I could feel vibrations of movement, but lately it has been pretty few and far between. I can't wait until I know the baby is doing well by their movements!

I mentioned before that I worked with very special needs babies for about 6 years after graduating from college. A good deal of them were just experiencing developmental delays, but a lot of them were born prematurely (extreme prematurity - 24-26 weeks), or extreme medical conditions that would create barriers for typical development. Initially, my job was as the special instructor and I would go in and teach the families how to have productive play time with their babies and promote reaching those needed milestones!! It was the most phenomenal job. The state then changed certification requirements, so I became an Intake Coordinator Supervisor - meaning I was the first person the hospital would call before a child would leave the hospital in the 3 parish (county) area. It was tremendously hard making this transition, because I was really a paper pusher and I had only 45 days to get these babies qualified and a plan put together with a team of EI specialist so that the baby would get the sevices they needed to thrive as soon as possible. I have seen so much and it has literally stayed with me over the years. I worked there until I realized the stress and crazy hours (sometimes 65 hrs a week) just wore me down. On top of all of this, I was dealing with crazy IF and still grieving the loss of our first child. I literally carried all of these babies in my heart. The toughest cases were the ones born addicted to drugs, watching them on all their machines and detoxing. Now the babies born with Down Syndrome, Spina Bifidia, or even more rare conditions - it was miraculous to be a part of that parent's journey for their child. I loved it! O how I loved seeing my (see I claimed these babes) babies thrive when all the odds seem stacked against them. My husband and I have had all kinds of discussions that we are ready for all. We will accept all! However our child comes to us, we will be the proudest - most loving parents that we have been created to be for that precious child. So all of that has been said because it just gives me more to try to push out of my memory :) Know what I mean, I know so much about when things can go wrong that each and every time a baby is born and all goes right, I am just blown away ;) Every baby is a miracle to be celebrated and I love being able to celebrate our miracle every day!

I just can't wait to meet this precious baby!!!! We have waited so long for that day and I pray that it will be filled with wonder, joy, and the brightest of blessings!!!