One day at a time

Well, I have to get that miserable title off of my blog about yesterday's experience.

Everyone I have talked to beleive that it is all nuts, but what can I do?

So, I managed to get myself out of the house today, did my labwork, and brought my resume to a couple places. There was definitely some humility going on in my life today and in the days past. I can't get over the fact that in one of my meditations for the rosary the spiritual gift related to the Nativity (bith of Jesus) is poverty. It is funny that I never thought seriously of poverty being a spiritual gift, but I guess in time, God will show me it's graces.

I think that tomorrow I will go and get the application for subbing at some schools close to my house. I really want something flexible and my husband is really encouraging for me to start school to get my teaching certification. I should have done this many years ago, but TTC was paramount. All I can do is trust that God has me exactly where he wants me to be at this time in my life.

I did have a better day, overall. I went to lunch with my mom, aunt, and my two cousins that I am especially close to, so it was a blessing to see them. I did order a salad, but I think that great bread they served before the meal was what put me over the edge. I was literally sick for putting to much food into my belly. My stomach is shrinking (which is a good thing) but I am still adjusting to it. I was supposed to go shopping with my mom afterwards, but I was wiped out. I ended up just coming home and taking a huge nap.

When my husband called to tell me he was on his way home, I tried to wake up (hahaha - what a lazy bum I am becoming). We ended up going to visit his parents tonight and got to see my sister in law and my godson, G. It was fun to hang out with them this evening. Praise God for good family visits. G is now 21 months and just so much fun right now.

While there we heard about a family who had a failed adoption recently and I was just so sad for them, I still can't understand why some families - couples facing IF - have to experience so many hardships. They were there at the hospital for the birth and paid so much to help care for the brithmom during her pregnany. It was just so sad, I will be praying for this couple for a long time. If you wish, you can join me - their name is Des and Josh. I pray that God rewards them with a child very soon.

I am telling you - the suffering of IF, m/c, adoption loss never leave your soul, you are forever changed. I have to say, God must have a reason for letting us suffer - the love He has for us never changes though.

Prayers continue, God's plans are being unfolded every second of the day!