So strange

It is so strange that I drive myself completely crazy worrying and why all of my appointments have to be on a Monday afternoon so that I drive myself and my husband batty all weekend!

I was a complete basketcase knowing that my progesterone numbers dropped. I tried to take a calm approach, but I would analyze every single symptom or non-symptom. Overall the whole weekend I felt find, I was just completely exhausted on Sunday. I managed to cook, vaccuum, and do two loads of laundy, but that was spaced from about 11 am to about 9 pm. We managed to get to an evening mass yesterday, mostly because I love receiving the Eucharist and feel like I am giving our baby Jesus. I don't know if I was a little down yesterday, but I took a long nap too! It was a very relaxing sunday. The only problem was when we got to church, I had to run to the bathroom and then I immediately felt awful. Strange and persistent stomach pains that really gave my mind and emotions a field day with worrying. I don't know if it was my husband's crazy driving to church (hahaha, just kidding - I am not a good passenger these days) or if it was the heat, but I was so afraid that I was going to miscarry. Those fears seep in and try to steal so much of my joy. I prayed and prayed and finally I felt better sitting in the cool church. Mass was beautiful and of course I cried at the end. It was just unbelievable that one year ago at this time I was in emergency surgery.
So anyway, today, I need my appointment to go well. I will update later.