I am just so sleepy lately. For the past two evenings, I went to bed at 8:30 p and woke up 10 hours later!!! This is not like me. By 3:30 in the afternoon at work, I am so tired, everyone can tell just by looking at me. I am on cd 10. Not much to report on that front.
I did have an amazing conversation with my spiritual director yesterday and she gave me some really great insights into being kind to my MIL bc for some reason she has really been hurting my feelings and this has caused an argument bt my husband and I when I expressed my hurt feelings to him. He thought that I was just being supersensitive, but I told him he is just use to her ways. Well, when I shared the situation with my mom, she confirmed that perspective of my spiritual director. When I shared this with my husband, we finally reached a agreement on the possibility of the reason she is doing what she is doing to me. But I quickly told him that I would not tolerate it, I would try to handle the situation with kindness. He understood. Praise God.
Just a funny note to share. The wonderful priest that I work with came up to me yesterday and told me "I want to ask you a highly personal question and you do not have to answer." I knew what he was referring to, but not the specific question he wished to ask. I nodded and he proceeded to ask me "Every morning when I say my prayers, I am asking God to allow you to become pregnant. Are you and J currently trying?" I laughed, whiched helped ease that tension, and let him know that we have never stopped TRYING. I told him we really gave our best effort to be pregnant before Christmas (so he could win his bet, HA HA) but that just did not happen. He loves to tell me the story of how his parents tried (70 years ago) to have children and had to try for six years before they got pregnant with him. His parents went on to have five more children. Whew! When I share this story with J, he gets the deer in the headlights looks. By the way, I just keep wondering just what God's plans for our children will be because every child I know that has been so desired for by their parents played such a marvelous part in God's plan to furthering the kingdom of God. Who knows if God is just making sure we will be the best people to parent this beautiful child that will surely come in God's own timing!
Dearest God,
Prepare my heart to be the mother you wish for me to be and bless the child(ren) you will bless us with! AMEN.
I am sitting at my desk trying not to cry. Seriously! My first thought is oh my gosh you are going to have a Priest. My mother told me the same thing as well. She said in history every child that has been desired and the parents had to wait, great things came from that child. She named a Saint and I can't remember now.
ReplyDeleteI hear my Priest talking about when he goes to visit his family he does a private mass for them. I marvel at what an intimate mass it must be. Considering the man presiding is one you gave birth to, but one that now feeds you the dear body and blood of Christ. I am not sure I would be able to live through the amount of emotion. Am I still PMSING? Gosh I feel hormonal!!!
How wonderful that your priest is praying for you each morning! I, too, have often thought about children that come from parents that have labored to have them. DH's parents took 4 years and I think he is so special! I pray your child will change the world.
ReplyDeleteMy husband thinks we will have a priest, and he said this way before he even started becoming Catholic!
ReplyDeleteThat is wonderful your priest is praying for you, and I think it's also wonderful you have a spiritual advisor. That is definitely hard to come by in today's world. I had an informal spiritual director, a nun, for about a year and it was incredible.
It seems really funny that you are all mentioning that we might have a son who is a priest. I woke up one sunday morning a few weeks back and dictictly remembering having a dream about our son's ordination and who the Bishop will be that would be ordaining him. This particular priest that I envisioned as a Bishop is actually a relatively new priest, but the dream was so real that it did not really seem like a dream, but a revelation. When I was exploring my vocation choices, I wanted to give God the first shot at me, even though I had already been praying for my future husband for years. I just wanted to say that I was open to livinga religious life if God called me to do so. My family was not so supportive, if fact, they were downright discouraging. I waited for God's answer though and he clearly revealed to me that my vocation was to be a wife and mother. I truly believe that he used that time in my life to really be able to help my children out and understand where they are coming from if they want to explore a vocation to religious life. Not all people are open to this. But I always said that I would prepare my child(ren) to listen to the whisper of God and pray openly about His will for their lives. My husband is a great man, but sometimes has very different opinions than I do about very big issues. So a few days, I asked him "How would you feel if your son wanted to be a priest? Would you be supportive or will this be hard for you?" To my great suprise and answered prayer he quickly said "That would be great. I would be fine with it if that is what he wants in his life!" Talk about God moving in miraculous ways. Before we met, he was baptized catholic and had received his first communion only bc his grandma insisted. His parents never really felt comfortable in the Catholic church and they never really pushed the issue with their children. His brother and sister are still very resistent to going to mass, even though they were baptized. There is also no praying in his family's household. I talk to his dad about prayer and he admits to me that he prays to God, but for some reason, they do not do this as a family. Thankfully, J is open to prayer as a family. Yet, he does not like to do it with his family
ReplyDeletebecause he is afraid to offend them or make them uncomfortable. Well, that went out the window for Thanksgiving since it was at our house and the prayer did go well. Here is to having beautiful children one day who will grow in their love for Christ and seek to serve Him in the way that He has created them to serve Him.
You know, as obvious as the Bible makes, it, this was a real wake-up call for me. I have always thought about how special the PARENTS are who historically struggle for a child (St. Anne and Joachim, Abraham and Sarah, Hannah, Rachel, Elizabeth, etc.)
ReplyDeleteBut it's more than that! It's about the child! If these Sts had given up, we wouldn't have Mary, Isaac, Samuel, Joseph (and the amazing technicolor dreamcoat, lol!), or John the Baptist!
Thank you for this reminder. And I love how your priest is praying for you. I hope mine is praying for us, too.
You can see why I would never be a good debater for the chuch! Reading TCIE post makes me feel so stupid! I swear! :) I have to laugh...
ReplyDeleteMy Priest told me after I got back from surgery that he kept wondering why he felt the need to pray for me and that he almost called to see if everything was okay.
He knew I was going into surgery but I didn't go into much detail, we were in the confessional. I often wonder what impact his prayers had on my outcome/surgery. Not to go off on a tangent but could it have been worse.
He is such a sweet Priest, I love Him. Even though he says he forgets after confession, in the confessional he remembers EVERYTHING! :)
Enough with my tangent that dream you had was amazing. Maybe our children are just going to be the best model children anyone could ever ask for.... :) Never cry or throw tantrums!
We can hope! But they will have to find their voice as much as we may not like it :)
ReplyDeleteThank you for all your comments on my blog. I love this whole conversation about priests! I have to admit, I haven't thought too much about the vocation of my future children. It's a beautiful thought! :)
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