Day 7: 30 Days of Thankfulness

I have been thinking a lot about the unborn and find myself thanking God for his deep, abiding love for me and my family.  He cares for not only the ones I see everyday, but for the ones I miss the most, Sam & Nicky.

Sam would be 11 years old this year (due date would have been in May of 2000).  I had a sweet encounter with a little girl named Malorie who is very special to my heart and she likes to talk about the babies we have in heaven.  She remembers, she loves them, and she fervently believes that our two babies in heaven were little girls.  She believes that Sam’s name is Angel.  No amount of telling her we did not get to know if she was a boy or girl changed her mind, Angel Sam was a little girl.  This comforts my maternal heart, especially as I am surrounded by boys!  Nicky is our little one we lost in a very tragic way in May of 2009.  Malorie also thinks this little one is a girl.  Either way, I cannot wait to meet these two precious children in heaven one day. 

A picture of me & my Ancy Barbara in 2009, celebrating Mother’s Day at our home – these and the following three pictures are the only ones I have of me when I was pregnant with Nicky.

My Mom & I.

Celebrating new life!

Our Lady of Guadalupe & St. Gerard, helping me celebrate the new growing baby! 

When I look at Joseph (especially in those early weeks following his miraculous birth) I was very sorrowful because I finally had a face to imagine what the other two children would have looked like.  Thankfully, the sorrow lessened at I embraced being thankful for all three of my children.  No matter what comes my way, I have to always teach the children in my home to love the unborn, to protect them, and to never forget them. 

Dragonflies are my reminders of my Nicky and they will always be a reminder of hope for me!

I am a simple woman who desires to transmit the  legacy of life-giving love to others.  No child is deserved, each child is a gift.  Even the ones we long to still meet.  So grateful God has allowed me to nurture nurture new life with my body three times.

Abba Father, thank you for making me female, I am thankful to be your daughter.  Amen.

In a very special way, both Sam & Nicky prepared a way for Joseph!  Thanks be to God!

A voice of one calling: "In the desert prepare the way for the LORD; make straight in the wilderness a highway for our God.

  Is 40:3