Sleep in Heavenly Peace

Silent night, holy night
All is calm, all is bright
Round yon Virgin Mother and Child
Holy Infant so tender and mild
Sleep in heavenly peace
Sleep in heavenly peace

Silent night, holy night!
Shepherds quake at the sight
Glories stream from heaven afar
Heavenly hosts sing Alleluia!
Christ, the Saviour is born
Christ, the Saviour is born

Silent night, holy night
Son of God, love's pure light
Radiant beams from Thy holy face
With the dawn of redeeming grace
Jesus, Lord, at Thy birth
Jesus, Lord, at Thy birth "


I went to a luncheon with my mom at her church with my two aunts today. They told a story about how how the manger was empty because Jesus can come and go from earth to heaven and so that is the same way with the ones we love. We can experience their presence here on earth at times. We sang christmas carols and just enjoyed making memories. Yet . . . . . .I completely lost it when we sang "Silent Night". I was reminded before the song that Nicky is in paradise and experiencing a time of fulfillment. As we neared the end of the first verse, I had to stop singing, my emotions were bursting open! I just felt that I was singing to my baby "sleep in heavenly peace, sleep in heavenly peace" It was a moment of letting go and an opportunity of renewed peace and understanding enveloped me.
My mom consoled me as tears racked my body. I don't know why grief has to be so hard, but it is necessary I suppose.

My heart is lighter and each day is filled with grace-filled moments that are leading me to knowing why I wait on Christ. I am preparing this advent and I am growing. I am trying hard to not cling, but to just wait to receive.