I feel so exposed and out of control of my desire. it's like its been bottled up until I exploded. And I started to rapidly unravel on Friday.
At first I felt that the submission was beat into me. I was rolled over into surrendering and then I guess I thought surrendering is only what quitters do. (But you know not that "type" of surrendering) Of course we surrender as best we can "this mess".
Whatever, I'm a mess. All I want to say is that we are on the same wave length. And. I.totally.get.you.
I didn't think I could keep getting lower. :(
Maybe one day I will learn what it means to totally ride the waves! ;) Not sure God made me that way though! I'm meant to scream like I'm on a roller coaster! hahahahaha
I'm so sorry.
ReplyDeleteI know that low feeling myself...all too well..somehow it gets better. Trust in the Lord. It will get better. Praying for you.
ReplyDeleteI completely understand.
ReplyDeleteI feel so exposed and out of control of my desire. it's like its been bottled up until I exploded. And I started to rapidly unravel on Friday.
At first I felt that the submission was beat into me. I was rolled over into surrendering and then I guess I thought surrendering is only what quitters do. (But you know not that "type" of surrendering) Of course we surrender as best we can "this mess".
Whatever, I'm a mess. All I want to say is that we are on the same wave length. And. I.totally.get.you.
I didn't think I could keep getting lower. :(
Maybe one day I will learn what it means to totally ride the waves! ;) Not sure God made me that way though! I'm meant to scream like I'm on a roller coaster! hahahahaha