Doctor's Appt Tomorrow - today's update w/ Lab results

I am going to see my doctor tomorrow for my first ob appt. Thankfully I recently had a annual exam on March 10. J will be there with me and I keep praying that they will be able to see baby and possibly a heartbeat. We will find out a due date tomorrow, although I already have an idea it will be sometime around Christmas. I still don't have a whole lot of symptoms of early pregnancy and it still feels like this is not even real yet. I do get some pain or spasms a few times a day, but they tend to go away quickly. I keep feeling so unworthy to be at this stage. Despite the years of waiting, I have feelings of concern about sharing it with my close friends who have been unable to have conceive and carry a child. While I know they are happy for me and J, I can sense their longing for this dream to be fulfilled in their lives. I had a hard time sharing it with my aunt who always wanted children and who is now in her late forties and continues to have health problems in regard to her cycles. Yet, her joy was so great because she knew (and understood) the struggle we faced for eight years. She can't wait to meet our baby. I can't either. I never thought I would want to rush the nine months, but I am realizing how much trust I am going to have to exercise in the next nine months. I need to trust that the nine months will come and go and the baby will be healthy and I will do okay in childbirth. I am worrying way too much. I keep thinking that every day is one day closer to meeting our little one. Now that I am feeling better, I am gaining more confidience that God is in control and I AM NOT! Thank goodness, bc I mess things up all the time. HAHA. Thank you so much for your continued support and prayers. I prayed for all of us in front of the tabernacle this morning. I know that God heard my prayers!
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Update.
We saw the doctor today and it seems I am a little too early on in the pregnancy to see much. They did say my lining looked perfect and we saw a very small black spot on the ultrasound that the doctored said was probably where the baby is growing and then he sent me in for more blood work. I know all the people at the lab now. The probably all know my dob by heart. The fun thing we learned today is that my due date is December 26! That is according to lmp. I think it will be a few days later bc I tend to peak later than the normal person. Overall, there was nothing negative about the appt today so I was happy. There is lots to be thankful for, especially for all of your prayers! Just got a call from the nurse. My hcg level is 3002.97! Yeah!!!! And the prog. level is 331.8! Such high numbers, I am so thankful!