Today is the day I see my local ob-gyn for my annual and I am not looking foward to it. I never like it and I have no idea if he can give me any insight as to what my chart is revealing. I have been trying to get him to consider going for training under dr. hi.lgers. Who knows, he is already doing a great work in volunteering for the local pregnancy crisis center and he is about the nicest man I have ever known. He is kind and gentle. I am lucky that he will one day be the man to deliver my babies into the world. I am feeling like being very hopeful right now. I don't think that I should be otherwise today. I believe that there are good changes happening in my body and I want to be hopeful today that one day I will be big, pregnant, and glowing with new life growing inside of me.
I did have a moment of near breakdown this morning when I discovered more fertile mucus. Seriously, I am on cd 25 and I was able to use a green baby stamp today. All of you who are instructors out there, if you have any insight, please share. I did put a call into the office in Omaha today. If I am going to pay $38 every month for cycle reviews, I am going to get some answers to my questions. Is it possible that my body is doing what it did before surgery? Also, I stopped taking the fertile cm vitamins/meds on saturday and I am still discovering fertile cm. I really think I already ovualated on saturday or maybe even friday bc that is when I started to have the sore bbs and could feel changes in my lower abdomen/womb area. The hcg meds are time sensitive and I don't want to mess those up. Hopefully, the nurse from Omaha can calm my worries today and my appointment with my local doctor is uneventful. I will have to update him on my change in family history which is a worry at the back of my mind.
We will be going to see that little house on saturday. It is a great little house with lots of land and we really should not be getting our hopes up about it. We will see and if we choose not to do it, we will know some more options about building a house on the land we already own.
I plan to ask my local doctor about the mthfr blood test. I don't know if this is something Dr. Hilgers ever ordered for me before any hospitalizations in Omaha. We will see. I don't know if it is covered on my insurance plan or not. We will see.
What a mosh-posh post. So many ideas going on in my head. On a good note, I do get to visit with one of my dear friends before making my way to the doctor's office today.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Sunday, March 8, 2009
tired
This weekend has not been restful so far, but I plan to make up for it this afternoon. We were busy all evening friday and then on saturday we were very busy helping my sil and her fiancee with baby in tow to move out of her parent's house and into their own rental. I have to tell you the day was penance for me. My husband volunteered us to help a bit to help get them out of his parent's house bc they have been stressing his parents out a great deal. It was a little overwhelming trying to help her clean bc she has never cleaned anything for herself, except her room. They got a massive tax return and have no income other than that at this time and they got a rental for a place that is more expensive than our house note. They even signed a lease for 6 mo. It is either sink or swim. I really hope they can swim. I think I put so much effort into it bc of the baby. Poor child has to live with these two adults. I can't even imagine.
Speaking of moving, I was bored the other night and was looking at local real estate and found this small apartment/barn style home with 2 bedrooms on 5 acres of land for a really great price. We went to look at it from the outside and are considering buying it for investment property. It is at a higher elevation than were we currently live and has more land. The problem is will will need to live in our currnet home for another 2 years before we can move, but it would make an excellant hurricane safe home. It can withstand winds of 180 mph. I have a fear of losing our home again to another hurricane and am discerning if fear is leading me to this opportunity or God in his wisdom allowing us to find something to prepare for the future with. The living areas are large but the 2nd bedroom is small and while we are not with child yet, what if we outgrow that house in the future and have to build on the land a larger home. Would this be cost effective, epecially in this market? I don't know, I am just rambling, but I did hear my husband say to his family "this is the kind of place I have always dreamed of having one day. . .I can do so much with this!" This is probably one of the wildest ideas I have ever had and he got on this bandwagon. So strange, so please pray for us as we discern and arrange a meeting with the real estate agent to see the home on the inside. On a funnier note, we have really good credit and the other day the president of a bank came by just to talk with J at his job while he was visitng his boss and asked "Do you need a loan for anything?" J just laughed it off, but was this a laying of the foundation?
In cycle news, I am so frustrated. I think I have a peak day and then mark it as such, then have a green baby day, and then bam -------- more fertile cm. Last night this happened. It is really hard to understand, so I stopped taking the fertile cm yesterday, even though I am supposed to take it until p+2 and I have no real idea when to start the hcg. I have had peak type mucus for the last 11 days (in that time there were two green baby stamps). I have no idea what to think and I am making a call to the dr on monday. Another weird thought that may be tmi. After BD yesterday, I beared down and wiped and found a itty bitty amount of pink/red. I don't know what to think of this or chart it bc it just happened once that day. I did have feelings of slight crampiness in the morning for a few hours too, along with breast tenderness since friday.
I don't know anymore. The charting is very empowering when you know what it means.
Hope you all are having a restful sunday!
Speaking of moving, I was bored the other night and was looking at local real estate and found this small apartment/barn style home with 2 bedrooms on 5 acres of land for a really great price. We went to look at it from the outside and are considering buying it for investment property. It is at a higher elevation than were we currently live and has more land. The problem is will will need to live in our currnet home for another 2 years before we can move, but it would make an excellant hurricane safe home. It can withstand winds of 180 mph. I have a fear of losing our home again to another hurricane and am discerning if fear is leading me to this opportunity or God in his wisdom allowing us to find something to prepare for the future with. The living areas are large but the 2nd bedroom is small and while we are not with child yet, what if we outgrow that house in the future and have to build on the land a larger home. Would this be cost effective, epecially in this market? I don't know, I am just rambling, but I did hear my husband say to his family "this is the kind of place I have always dreamed of having one day. . .I can do so much with this!" This is probably one of the wildest ideas I have ever had and he got on this bandwagon. So strange, so please pray for us as we discern and arrange a meeting with the real estate agent to see the home on the inside. On a funnier note, we have really good credit and the other day the president of a bank came by just to talk with J at his job while he was visitng his boss and asked "Do you need a loan for anything?" J just laughed it off, but was this a laying of the foundation?
In cycle news, I am so frustrated. I think I have a peak day and then mark it as such, then have a green baby day, and then bam -------- more fertile cm. Last night this happened. It is really hard to understand, so I stopped taking the fertile cm yesterday, even though I am supposed to take it until p+2 and I have no real idea when to start the hcg. I have had peak type mucus for the last 11 days (in that time there were two green baby stamps). I have no idea what to think and I am making a call to the dr on monday. Another weird thought that may be tmi. After BD yesterday, I beared down and wiped and found a itty bitty amount of pink/red. I don't know what to think of this or chart it bc it just happened once that day. I did have feelings of slight crampiness in the morning for a few hours too, along with breast tenderness since friday.
I don't know anymore. The charting is very empowering when you know what it means.
Hope you all are having a restful sunday!
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Triplets, Blessings and weird conversations
Today, I feel like a brand new person emotionally. I woke up feeling great and even had a fun day at work. I know, am I the same person?
I was at my desk today and this sweet priest who had been on retreat for the past week came by to give me a hug and kiss before he left and said he would be praying for me and that I would not be driven crazy by all of the nutty people I have to work with everyday. At first, I thought that the priest I work with told him that J and I were praying for babies. It turned out that the priest I worked with had not told him and the other gentleman on retreat, but before they left, he sure did. It sure is funny that he pulled this on me today and not two days ago when I would have just busted out crying. Well, the priest that had just kissed me turned right back around came back to me in all humility and gave me the most beautiful, silent blessing and touched me on my forehead as he did so. I was so humbled. Talk about asking special favors from God. Then, the priest I work with told me maybe you need to visit and rub hands with this man over here. I knew this man's name, but I knew nothing of his background. Both priests proceed to tell me that he is the father of triplets and that when his wife was pregnant the doctors only told them that there were twins. That is what they prepared for, twins ran in both sides of the family. Well, when his wife went to deliver and both babies were born, they were suprised that another little one was going to be born that day too. Two girls and a boy (now 7). The father of the triplets said they were later blessed with another boy. He is a principal at a catholic high school and told me to go drink some of the water from the school bc a coach at the school had twins shortly after the triplets were born. I told him "i would be knocking down doors at that high school to get to the water fountain if that was all it took for me to get pregnant!!!!" So funny. There was a few other discussions about some other intimate things and I told my husband of the converstation tonight and told him that I must be the only woman I know who can laugh and joke about sex with two priests and a married man at a retreat center. None of it was crude, just life-affirming. I must say, I did not even blush. I am still laughing about how they mentioned the suprise of the last child. I just keep wondering if one day, I will be suprised in such a way. By the way, the father of four told me, I will pray for you to get pregnant, but I will never pray that God will give you three babies at once, it is just too hard.
Now, here is the funny thing - I have had the pleasure of working with two sets of triplets and one set of quads and in all cases - the parents were absolutely amazing!!!! I have never seen parents so in tune with their children and routine like they were. All were conceived through IVF and all of the parents were blown away with 3 babies. Keep in mind, the man who talked with me today and his wife used no forms of repoductive assistance for their triplets. One couple told me "Man, the odds were unimaginable that we would have 3, we really should have bought a lottery ticket that day!" May God bless all parents as well as all of us desiring to be trusted with that vocation!
I was at my desk today and this sweet priest who had been on retreat for the past week came by to give me a hug and kiss before he left and said he would be praying for me and that I would not be driven crazy by all of the nutty people I have to work with everyday. At first, I thought that the priest I work with told him that J and I were praying for babies. It turned out that the priest I worked with had not told him and the other gentleman on retreat, but before they left, he sure did. It sure is funny that he pulled this on me today and not two days ago when I would have just busted out crying. Well, the priest that had just kissed me turned right back around came back to me in all humility and gave me the most beautiful, silent blessing and touched me on my forehead as he did so. I was so humbled. Talk about asking special favors from God. Then, the priest I work with told me maybe you need to visit and rub hands with this man over here. I knew this man's name, but I knew nothing of his background. Both priests proceed to tell me that he is the father of triplets and that when his wife was pregnant the doctors only told them that there were twins. That is what they prepared for, twins ran in both sides of the family. Well, when his wife went to deliver and both babies were born, they were suprised that another little one was going to be born that day too. Two girls and a boy (now 7). The father of the triplets said they were later blessed with another boy. He is a principal at a catholic high school and told me to go drink some of the water from the school bc a coach at the school had twins shortly after the triplets were born. I told him "i would be knocking down doors at that high school to get to the water fountain if that was all it took for me to get pregnant!!!!" So funny. There was a few other discussions about some other intimate things and I told my husband of the converstation tonight and told him that I must be the only woman I know who can laugh and joke about sex with two priests and a married man at a retreat center. None of it was crude, just life-affirming. I must say, I did not even blush. I am still laughing about how they mentioned the suprise of the last child. I just keep wondering if one day, I will be suprised in such a way. By the way, the father of four told me, I will pray for you to get pregnant, but I will never pray that God will give you three babies at once, it is just too hard.
Now, here is the funny thing - I have had the pleasure of working with two sets of triplets and one set of quads and in all cases - the parents were absolutely amazing!!!! I have never seen parents so in tune with their children and routine like they were. All were conceived through IVF and all of the parents were blown away with 3 babies. Keep in mind, the man who talked with me today and his wife used no forms of repoductive assistance for their triplets. One couple told me "Man, the odds were unimaginable that we would have 3, we really should have bought a lottery ticket that day!" May God bless all parents as well as all of us desiring to be trusted with that vocation!
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