What in the world?

I am having alot of B/black bleeding. I don't ever have this at the beginning of a cycle. I thought some people have this at the end of a cycle, it has just really set off alarms in my head! What is going on?

The only time I had this type of situation was at the beginning of the pregnancy when I was on the progesterone suppositories. It looks like that.

Today I was in so much pain at work on the left side that I was thinking no one should have to live like this. There was no breakdown, no tears - just feelings of being dumbfounded and bewildered.

How much can a girl take? Seriously! Something has to get better, someday. It will happen.

I was able to go hang out with my best friend tongight as I processed what I am going through emotionally, I realized that I am just ready for some progress. I am seeking a life filled with purpose. It is time. Okay, I think it is time for change, maybe God just wants to keep me in this place a while longer.

I will wait on the Lord to change the view for me and I will wait for him to take my hand and lead me to the grassy hillside where I can rest and just enjoy his presence.


Anyway, anyone with experience on Brown/Black bleeding, please share your experience and what the culprit could be. I did have to take alot of antibiotics this cycle and I was worried about a yeast infection, but I am just so lost and can't wait to get some clarification from the cycle review tomorrow.

Please God, lead me to the light. Amen!

Update

No pg, I don't think. I am having terrible pain on the left side, which is my new indicator that cd 1 has decided to arrive.

I am having a weird beginning to that and it worries me, of couse, AF arrived after the nursed faxed me orders for a beta today. When will I learn to just be patient and wait it out!

So very frustrating!

I am 33!

I am 33 and living proof that getting older is not so bad, in fact, today was pretty incredible.

I started it off with a bang by meeting with someone about that special prayer intention that I have been considering and hoping will work out. More details to come when I find out more information.

Then I was able to just do some shopping at Tar.get. During my shopping trip, I got a really weak stomach so I headed out and then went to Mass and afterwards got to meet my Mom, her friend, and one of my best friends at O.live Garden. I ate way too much, but the company was the best. It was so fun to cut up and just laugh out loud about silly things. My heart nearly got stuck in my throat though as I walked to the table and had to literally sit next to a beautiful 6 week old perfectly created little girl.
It almost felt like a slap in the face after my "Not pregnant" result on the hpt today. I just sucked it up, and went on and admired God's perfection.
I got to come home early and play with the kitties. I am such a pet mommy. I can't help it that they make me happy.

In regard to the cycle, I am p+15 and my last hcg shot was last monday, so it should be out of my system. So I never threw the test from this morning away and since it was one of those digital ones, I went to click it out and when I looked at the lines, the result line was very faint, after about 8 hours. I nearly choked up and got my unrealistic hopes up. If a new cycle does not start by wednesday, I will test again. Feeling so desperate, yet cautious. I don't know if I am ready for the consequences if I will ever have to face the reality of another ectopic pregnancy. In regard to that, I am feeling slight pains on my right side, but not enough for any medication. It comes and goes. I only tested this morning because I am having weird lower back pain and the girls are still tender. Usually by this time of the cycle, I am feeling pain on the left side where the tube was removed. I don't know how to read the symptoms anymore because I am possibly seeing less pain because I could actually be healing.

Just waiting and seeing, the story of my life!

Oops, just post something and you are guranteed to see change. It looks like some vl brown spotting. Can you hear the wailing? Just kidding, I refuse to cry anymore than I did this morning when I say my drop in bbt.