Breathing a sigh of relief!

I got to hear our babe's gorgeous heartbeat today!!!
PRAISE GOD!

There was no ultrasound today, so my doctor was hoping to be able to find the babe's heartbeat with just the fetal doppler. At first, she was unable to find it because there was so much static on the little machine. I prayed as I layed on that table and then praise God - Little Bit's heartbeat came out loud and clear! It was miraculous! I was crying, I was so happy! I am just amazed that there is a baby growing in there! I was able to have my aunt (the one who is like a mom to me, but unable to have children of her own) with me and she cried tears of joy today, too! It was so special for her and the very first time she got to ever hear a baby still in the womb's heartbeat! Like I have always said, this baby was not just an answered prayer for my husband and I, but for so many people in my family and beyond. This baby is already changing people's hearts for God!! My aunt told me today that she would sometimes forget to pray during the day because she would get distracted, so she set an alarm at her phone to remind her to pray everyday! I told her that was a great idea and then she told me that she started that when she found out this little baby was coming and so she prays everyday at 10am for the baby and us! God, I knew our child would be an answer many prayers and I thank you for this gift!

My body has changed quite a bit, my belly was always big, but it has changed shapes dramatically and I find it so funny! I have been having such a change in eating patterns (not much of an appetite or just craving healthier choices) so I was pleasantly suprised today that my weight is less now than it was a few weeks ago. I am about the same weight I was for my two surgeries with Dr. H, but now I am 15 weeks pregnant, so I am pleased. I am wearing some maternity clothes and still wearing a few of my stretchy pants! I have always been really well endowed in my chest, but my belly is now poking out further than my chest. It is really weird to see, I am loving ever bit of it! Running to the bathroom has become less frequent and the nasea is improving. I struggled with a terrible headache/sinus problems, but I finally gave in a took a tylenol tonight and feel a relief from the pounding in my temples.

It rained all day here! I was driving home in the rain, could barely see through the windshield, and dealing with a pounding headache so I was praying so hard to just make it home! As soon as I did, I took a hot shower (I forgot to say that before I could drive home I had to get gas in the whipping rain and was wet and messy) and then I was able to relax and do some chores while I was waiting for my meat to defrost for dinner! Thank God, my husband came home and helped me cut it up! I hate the smell of raw meat these days :)

Tomorrow is our 10th Anniversary!!!!!!!!!!

I love my husband so much and everyday is a gift when I get to wake up to his warm embrace :)

Exhausted!!!

I am so tired. I did not get home until 8 pm!!

I know that is probably nothing for others, but for me it was pushing it! I was up early, worked a full day, ran a few errands, and then visited my mom at the hospital. We ended up eating wendy's because we did not feel up to cooking!

Today was my last day. I will go back for a few hours on Thurday and Friday to volunteer to train my replacement. Yes, I know this is insane, but I don't know how to say "no".

My doctor's appointment is tomorrow. Praise God! I need to see that this baby is okay :)
I wish I would not be so prone to worry and fear. I am doing better, but sometimes I will wake up in the middle of the night worried. So, in all honesty, I am nervous but I keep telling myself that I have been worried before and I was miraculously suprised that the baby was growing like they should!

Have I mentioned that I am so ready to find out if our baby is a boy or girl! I am go happy and can't wait to call them by the name we have chosen!!

St. Therese, St. Gianna, St. Gerard, St. Joseph, and St. Veronica pray for us! Nicky and Sam, pray for us!

The wheels . .

in my head are making laps these past few days. I can't get my mind to wrap around the fact that my vocation is evolving and while it is something I always dreamed of, I never thought about having it transition like this.

I am trying to look at the positives of being a stay at home wife, don't get me wrong - it is what I have always dreamed of, but it is going to be so different for me.

I worry about so much! I'm not super stressed or anything, I am trying to take it all in stride and embracing God's will for me at this time.

Last night we went out to dinner with two of our most favorite friends and they were so very encouraging and this curve in the road we are facing. My husband is handling the changes well, way better than me. I know that once the baby comes I will not want to be leaving them with anyone, but it is still hard for me to imagine that I will be caring for a newborn soon and be consumed with caring for them, that I will not have time to worry. The friends told us that their agreement when their kids were small was that she was the homemaker and would care for the kids while he went to work and she was his support and his helpmate. My husband really seem to get this for almost the first time (that I have seen). It will be super hard, but I am praying that somehow we can make it work. These friends made the comment to me that in a year from now we will be having dinner - all five of us together! They are close to our age, but there kids are almost all grown! She said the only thing that would be different is that there will be a high chair at out table. I couldn't even imagine that!!! I have the hardest time picturing anything but focusing on seeing that little newborn - wrinkley, crying, gorgeous baby! That is what I keep visualizing, that very first meeting once all the labor is done! God, please let us get to that precious moment and all of the precious moments to come!!

Anyway, we went to Hobby Lobby today and got our Papal Blessing celebrating our 10th wedding anniversary framed! It is coming up on July 1st! It looks awesome I am so excited! Awhile back I won this beautiful platter plate at our Pokino party and it came from Hobby Lobby. It was pretty, but just never fit into our home decor. When I was in the store the other day, I say it and it was $50. I decided today to see if I could exchange it for the framing of the Blessing and I was able to get a gift card for 1/2 the amount of the platter (the lady probably got it on sale anyway) and then my framing was 50%, I now still have money on the card to go back and shop for some decorating things for the nursery! I am so happy! Then I found a super cute gift for an upcoming baby shower! I love it! Now all we have to do is find a place to hang the Blessing!

I am off to cook dinner, my in-laws are coming over shortly! Praise God that I was able to sleep in a bit this morning!

Hopefully this will be us soon! With our own precious baby! This one is from the baptism of our Godson, G! Sweet, Sweet Boy!